Renaissance Man Learns

Being new to blogging, and encouraged by a new good friend, I'm going to blast out of me everything that's been interesting to me. This will probably be a long one...

I remember being in high school, I took martial arts classes (tang soo do) and in the midst of my learning various forms and such, I realized that my mind was much more drawn to the healing side of the ancient arts. Our sensei would always teach us a few accupressure points where if you hit someone there, it the results would be painful; but he also taught that if these points were massaged, then they can bring relief to the same discomforts they would cause when used in violence. I don't know if this concept is completely true, but this one realization of self-healing become a major part of my life ever since...

Having low self-esteem in high school due to a lack of style, bad hairstyling, and an acne problem brought forth my interest in chinese medicine. I always thought - maybe there were some herbs that would help, and in that search I came upon goldenseal and others that helped in the short-term, but that's about it... It wasn't until the distant future (about 3 years ago), that I realized that maybe my GI tract had something to do with it.

Then came college, as a typical guy always interested in girls & gadgets (but gadgets were always easy to come by versus girls which weren't, in my situation at least), I pursued a career in electrical engineering, based on the cool equipment that I was looking forward to playing with (and based somewhat on my favorite movie at the time, Real Genius, with Val Kilmer). There was one girl that I was very attracted to, an orthodox Jewish mystically-sexy senior, and despite my efforts in trying to get to know her, I decided that maybe there was another way - I learned about OOBEs (I thought I could visit her in her dream state...), but soon gave up after learning that it was probably something that you had to be naturally good at. Anyway, My tastes have always been on fringe topics at the time like: VR, biofeedback, altered states (without drugs), chinese medicine, etc.

I remember working my 1st job in NYC as an application engineer for a toy-design company and I one day decided to join a tai chi class. Especially after watching the cool series on TV, Kung Fu, with David Carradine(sp?). Anyway, obsessed with leaning what this 'chi' thing was all about, and eventually consciously feeling it for the 1st time, I was hooked. This led me to a deep journey of inner exploration... From classes on Chi & Auras to qigong (Chi Kung), I studied everything I could find on the subject and experimented on my own. From laying in bed before I went to sleep and playing with the externally projected chi-feeling between my hands, to "applying" it with women by energetically getting them turned on by using the force ;)

Currently, I'm reading a fantastic book, Astral Dynamics that describes an easy-to-learn training course that helps you achieve the out-of-body (OOBE) state. My study of qigong is paying off by giving me a head start (I am already very comfortable feeling my energy body and directing my energy flows solely with my mind). Cool stuff!!! I'm at a point where I am working on individually activating my major & minor chakras. There is alot of work to do!!! I'm also reading this book differently than I read most other books. I put it down until I am very comfortable with the current set of exercises that it recommends working on. This way - I just don't finish the book and file the info away someplace w/o ever trying to seriously apply it. I feel that the real challenge is finding the time to do this sort of work, without interruption.

For awhile, I was really into brain-enhancement stuff. I have a SLED (sound & light entrainment device) mind machine that I've had alot of fun with over the years, but I've been lazy about sending it in ( I think one of the audio channels is bad). I also played around with a CES device (Cranial Electro-stimulation) which by the way is pretty cool - the cheap version I have works pretty well and relaxes me to a huge degree. I built a few sets of biocircuits - you lay on various copper plates that are connected to each other in various configurations, and generally it has an extremely relaxing effect on the body - I've even experimented with substance circuits, where you place some sort of chemical or drug in water inline with the rest of the biocircuit. I have DEFINATELY had results, and even wierder, is that my wife who was laying nearby was also affected to the same strong degree as I was, despite the fact that we weren't even touching one another. I'm really into this stuff...

I've writting alot so far. Overall, I believe that something special is going on with all of this stuff and me... I'm obviously very passionate about all of this sort of thing. I oftentimes feel a bit lost about what would be the best path for me to take in life. I need something that will give me the financial freedom & job satisfaction that I hugely desire - maybe this sort of thing is my ultimate path (at least for some time). I don't know... I am going to leave it up to God to provide for me the opportunities, if these choices would be the best for my life-contract.

Anyway, good night. And so it is.